Sticks and Stones.

Wow.

It's been a funny thing, these past three weeks.

It feels like time is moving so slowly. The days drag on, the nights drag on. It's like a reverse time warp.



I like to blog. It helps me clarify my thoughts and feelings. It helps me understand things better. It makes me feel less alone. I know I am not the only person experiencing the things in my life and perhaps someone who also has experienced these things will have good insight. Or maybe someone else won't feel quite so alone.



I have never given as much thoughts to the comments people have posted until the last post. I do believe as much as I have the right to blog about whatever suits me, people have the right to their opinions too. So post away your comments but bare in mind a few things.



I do not live by the judgement of others. I know this is a frustrating thing. I will not be governed by other peoples expectations. I will not chose my action based on how that will influence what you think of me. I desire the approval of very few. That is maddening to some. If you do not like me that is ok. If you don't want to believe me that is fine too.
I know the truths in my life, I live them.
I believe in civility but not pretending to like someone I don't. I do not have to like everyone. I do not have to care what your opinion of me is. I actually feel like it's none of my business what you think of me.
I will not do things I regret, I don't believe in regret. Life is too short to waste. I rarely do things I am ashamed of or could be humiliated by.

I have deep reverence for the opinions and feelings of those who are close and meaningful to me and I will always try to listen and respect those. For those who are strangers that want to share their experience or insights to my situations thank you. You never know what wisdom or words will resonate.

If you simply want to attack me, judge me, please be bold enough to stand behind your words, your insights into my life and be who you are. Why must you hide? I am merely one woman who has no impact on your life why would you fear me?

It's because you simply don't know. Those who do know our life, those who could be justified in calling me names, laying out my poor behavior for my inspection would do so directly. And it would be meaningful.

I suspect you form you opinions from irregular isolated contact that has little to do with our family. Project your own experiences and desire to have a say in the outcome of someone else's life from a distance behind a wall.

Very cowardly.

As was it to ambush me at my home, drunk, in front of my kids. To make comments you cannot stand behind.



Time will tell.
The Truth is unstoppable.